Update!

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while guys. I've been pretty flat out really, and on my days off (when I get them) I've just wanted to lounge around and be useless. But I've returned!

I ended up applying for uni again. My first two preferences are both UQ, which is where I wanted to go in the first place. They're the only major university in Queensland that actually offer an English major in their Arts program. Not English Literature, not English as a second language - just English. THANK YOU. So that's preference number one - BA at UQ majoring in English. Haven't decided yet whether to put Literature as a second major, or just do the one major and some electives. I'll figure that out if I get in. Second preference is their double degree, Education/Arts. All my other preferences are Education programs at other universities.

Work has become 'just work'. It's still okay, I don't hate it or anything. But it's still retail, and it's still just a casual job. Until I start some kind of fulfilling career, I'll never be truly happy with a job. It's definitely bringing in the moolah though.

I'm finally getting my first tattoo on Saturday. I'll post a photo when it's finished. I'm so excited. Dad asked me if he could get the same one, he loved the design so much. It says Ben in this childish font, with a screwdriver under it. Ben is my two-and-a-half year old brother, for those who don't know, and his favourite things in the whole world are screwdrivers. It's going on my foot, between the ankle bone and heel. Dad said he's also getting one on the other foot with my name and a book.

I finished all my assignments for this semester, which is a huge relief. Now I just have three exams to study for, and from 10:30am on November 12th I will be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! That is a very good thing, because this semester has driven me nuts. Ugh. Stupid USQ. I hate it.

Well, I don't think I have any other news. Mai is just being her cute, kitten-y self. Oh, my calorie counting is going quite well. I've only had 3 days this month that I've gone over my maximum. I set up an Excel spreadsheet for it, actually. It tells me whether I've lost or gained weight each day, or just stayed the same, depending on my calorie intake for the day. Then it gives me percentages of each for the month. I'm sitting on 48% loss, and most of the rest is 'same'. Pretty happy with myself. I'm not weighing myself, but Dad said I've lost weight *happy face*. The best part of calorie counting as opposed to normal dieting is that I can eat anything I like, as long as I don't have too much or I compensate in other ways (like, if I have a chocolate bar, I won't have milk with my dinner). It's great.

Ok, now I don't have any more news for real.

Uni

Mind has changed again. I've decided to apply for a Bachelor of Education at Griffith, with UQ and QUT as back up preferences for next year. I couldn't stomach the thought of just working in retail all year again. I need to be striving towards something. So that's what I'm gonna do. Teaching has always been in the back of my mind. It's always been my back up career. I feel like I would feel really fulfilled in that job. I want to teach senior secondary, mainly because I think I'd get bored teaching the easier stuff. I want to teach English and History. That's my current plan. We'll see how long it takes for me to change my mind again!

That sickness went away pretty quickly. I had a really good long sleep on Monday night and woke up 100% on Tuesday. Woohoo!

I don't really have much else to talk about tonight. Just thought I'd update y'all on my uni plans :)

It starts off depressing, but don't lose hope!

I hate that even though I enjoy my job, I still spend the entire shift wishing it was home time. I still get that horrible feeling in my gut when I wake up on a work day. Does that ever go away? Will it go away once I have a career, or will it just get worse because I'll be working full time? Is it just retail that does this to me?

I'm sick again. I really really hope it doesn't get awful. At the moment it's just that achy, icky feeling with the lethargy and the headache and such. Made today's shift almost unbearable, but I made it. Sunday rate was worth it. I have tomorrow off now too, which means no work for three days. If that doesn't let me get better, nothing will. I'm so glad I have such nice bosses. Jenny told me not to even worry about swapping shifts, just don't come in. Take some medicine, haha. I still feel bad though, because I haven't been working there long and I didn't want to take any days off until I'd been there at least one month. But after working the whole weekend feeling like crap, the thought of working tomorrow nearly had me in tears. It also means I didn't have to do my assignment tonight and I can do it tomorrow. That's definitely a plus, because I don't think my brain would have functioned enough to let me do an assignment tonight. Too exhausted.

I get my big pay in tomorrow. Pretty pumped for that. I'm going to buy my parents presents for lending me money so many times over the past few months, and I'm also buying Jessica some Microsoft Points because she's dying for some and has no money. I'm buying some of those for me too, and doing a huge grocery shop. Assuming that the servings listed on the recipes are right, I'll be cooking myself 13 meals on Tuesday. I'm just going to freeze them all. I hope they're nice, because I'll have 3 each of 4 of them. The other one is only one because it's a pork chop thing and pork chops are expensive. That one is a treat for myself :) They're all low calorie meals that I found online too - less than 300 calories per serve! Which rocks, because I'm allowed up to 1500 a day, so either I'll lose heaps of weight OR I'll be able to eat chocolate. Lol. Either way. Both options seem pretty good to me!

Anyway, I'm going to curl up in bed and watch a movie, and pray that when I wake up I feel better, not worse. Fingers crossed.