Fucking Christ sake.

I hate that I miss someone I'm so angry with. That's unfair, don't you think? It happens everytime I have a fight with a friend though. No matter how certain I am that they're in the wrong, I end up being the one to cave because I miss them. Clearly more than anyone ever misses me or cares about me. Why the fuck do I bother having relationships with people at all? They all fuck you over in the end, right? It's human nature to be shit.

I'm realising more and more how much I love my Dad now. I think I've finally gotten over all the shit and I really genuinely want him around now. I got an offer to move back in and it was really, really tempting. But of course, his partner is still there, and I'm sure it would still be crap to live with her. But living with Dad and Ben would be great, that's for sure. I do really love living with Jess though, and after November we'll be living with Kahli too, so I'm pretty excited about that. Life is hard :/

Yesterday, I felt like shit. I tried all day to find a cover for my shift but no one would help me except someone who was already working at the other store. Then this morning one of these useless coworkers has the gall to text me and ask if I can work tonight! FUCK YOU. As if I'm going to help you now.

I'm really just sick of people and their general shitness. I hate you all, you fucking disgusting human beings.

I miss you - you know who you are.

Back in the game.

I haven't blogged in quite some time, and to be honest there's nothing to blog about, so I don't know why I'm here. A random urge, I suppose.

This weekend, starting tomorrow, is going to be so awesome. Holy crap. Ekka tomorrow! I freaking love the Ekka. Then staying at Jimboomba with Bianca till Sunday. Heck yes. I'm gonna drive her car :) Gig on Saturday night at Broadbeach, because we can. Then my aunt and uncle's birthday celebration at the grandparents' place on Sunday, Bianca's coming, Chinese for lunch, freaking awesome. It's been so long since I've had Chinese *reminisces* mmm.

Next week, I'll be applying for a loan so I can get a car and a laptop. I have a letter from my boss stating that I have guaranteed hours despite my casual status, I have a letter from Hailey's mum vouching for me since I paid board there, and if all else fails and they need me to have a guarantor, Hailey's mum agreed to that too. I shouldn't though. I hope I don't. I really want to do this on my own. But yay! I can't decide if I'm more excited about the car or the laptop. I've wanted a laptop for soooooooooooo long, but a car man. Man...a car.

So I'm pretty sure tonight will drag like crazy. RAs will probably be done by the time I get there, so I'll only have slicks to do. I'll have to find something else. You're all thinking, what the fuck are RAs and slicks? Haha, never you mind, little dears. Never you mind.