This isn't actually about anything in particular.

Just to ease people's minds, I have calmed down and now realise that maybe there are two or three guys per country who actually do have a brain AND a penis. Amazing, I know. And I do want one, please.

I don't understand why when someone posts a blog that was obviously written in a state of extreme anger, some people have to take it personally. Are people really that self-absorbed? Do they think, oh this person must be attacking me personally here. It doesn't make any sense for you to assume that. Goodness.

You know what else I don't understand? Why males who are always at LEAST 24, if not ten years older, keep adding me on MySpace with some comment like, "You're cute, wanna chat sometime?". No, no I do not want to chat to you, you dirty pervert. I had some like, Arab guy add me. He goes "Hey I looked at your profile and the first word that came to my mouth was gorgeous. Want to be friends?" I mean, not only is that the worst pick up line I've ever heard, we don't even live in the same country. You don't want friendship, obviously, and you physically cannot get in my pants. Why are you adding me? I just don't know.

Ok so I'm 19 now, right? That's old. I feel very old. Most of my friends are still 17. I'm so old. Old old old. Anyway, I actually feel different. This is the first birthday where I've gone, holy crap I'm a year older, I'm different now. I don't actually believe it was the birthday, don't worry. But lately I have been changing, growing. I've noticed differences between me and some of my younger friends. I also noticed last night how sometimes I still act very much like a teenager. Yet this is only when I'm around other teenagers. At home, with my adult friends, I'm an adult. I'm responsible, I have wit and I can cook. It's really odd. Please don't take offence to this if you're one of my teenage friends, it honestly is not a bad thing to act like a teenager. I'm glad I have you guys to bring that out in me. And now I sound really patronising, when I'm really only a year older than you. I'm sorry. Ugh. The point is, I feel I'm more diverse now. That's the point. Why didn't I just say that? God.

I really love my friends. Last night I had the best time, and all we did was take stupid photos and listen to dumb songs. So to Bianca, Karli and Hailey, thank you for an awesome birthday celebration :) And to all my friends, thank you for not hating someone as insane and tactless and ridiculous as me. I appreciate that.