It's all just rambling. Reader beware.

I'm in a lot of pain right now. I've felt so good for so long, it's like my body decided enough was enough. I can't possibly be healthy for long. So now my back is killing me, which makes me cry and makes my hands shake. I feel like I'm disabled or something, I can't pick things up without a 90% chance I'll drop them. I'm having trouble typing, I have to backspace at least twice every sentence. My head is pounding, which is caused by my back hurting and the hole in my tooth that's killing me because I ate sugary food. I don't want to go to the dentist though, I hate the dentist and how they try to have a conversation with you when their hands are rammed into your mouth. I can't talk when they're in there, moron. Maybe this hole will make me stop eating crap. That would be good, I'm gaining weight again. Want to know why? Because I'm fucking alone. I'm alone. Yeah ok great I have friends. Not gonna fill that one empty spot in my heart sorry. And even if I fell in love with one of them, as if they'd date me. They know me, they'd have to be crazy to want to date me. Because I'm crazy. I'm fucking crazy. I haven't felt like this for a couple of months. I was going so well. What happened? I don't understand. I don't understand why I can't just be fucking HAPPY. For a long period of time. Why does that have to end? It doesn't make any sense to me. The world doesn't make any sense to me. And I feel sick. I feel really sick. But I think it's psychosomatic. I think it's because I'm crazy. What's wrong with me? I bet I'll be fine in the morning. Or maybe in 5 minutes. Maybe I just need someone to need me. I think that's what I need. I want to be someone's world again. I can't believe how much I'm rambling. This is stupid. People have bigger problems than me, I should just shut up, right? Well fuck it.