Multiple Thoughts

Now that I'm being really strict on myself, I'm really not finding dieting hard at all. Not that it's exactly dieting. I'm just not snacking and my dinner consists more of vegetables than meat/carbs. It's the exercise part I struggle with. At the moment, I'm just walking for an hour a day. It sounds so easy, but because I push myself to walk quickly it hurts and it's hard. I dread it every day, and spend the entire walk wishing it would end. I really hope that once I get a job and join a gym and can do spin classes and swim, that exercise will become easier. Not physically, but mentally.

My friend sort of set me up with this guy. He's her brother's mate. We just texted for the first time last night, because I hate phone calls and I wanted to know a little bit about him before actually going on a date. I hate dates and blind dates are a million times worse. Anyway, he plays guitar and surfs and is studying community welfare. He starts work as a disability worker in 3 weeks. He enjoys chick flicks and almost any music. He doesn't read much or play video games, but I can deal with that/convert him. He texted me first today too. He sent me a photo and he's nothing special but he's not unattractive. He's just an average bloke. Doesn't smoke, drink or do drugs. Seems perfect. Except he's 28 and has a 6 year old son. I want to give it a shot, but I am worried about the kid part. I'm trying so hard to focus on being young. I guess we'll see. If I don't feel any real connection when we meet I'll call it off. It's not worth dating a guy with a kid just casually. If I'm going to have a fling I want it to be with someone younger and carefree. The other issue is, as soon as my friend told me he wanted to go on a date with me, the first thing I thought was "I don't want a relationship." Not a great sign. I don't know. I'm pretty torn on this subject.

I wish tomorrow would hurry up. It's payday, and I want to pull my money out of the bank and literally split it up into the things I have to pay for and see what's left. I really hope I have enough money for a new bra. All of mine are now officially uncomfortable and not one is supportive enough for exercise. It's driving me crazy. And my tights, which I wear on my walks, are starting to wear through around the crotch (embarrassing) and have a couple of holes in one leg. Please let me get this job.