What's the point then?

Today was pretty bad. I feel terrible both physically and emotionally now.
I'm sick - my nose is running, my throat burns, my head throbs,
my back aches and my neck keeps cramping up.

My iPod jack, where the earphones plug in, officially died today.
So I can't listen to my iPod anymore except through my 360.
Then, to top that off, my computer speakers died.
So the ONLY way I can listen to music is through my 360.

Now I have 2 things I have to replace.
With money.
That I don't have.

I need to work so I can get money.
Because right now I'm in dire need of it.
But I'm sick and work makes me want to die.

I was abused tonight because a man in Victoria was receiving texts.
His number had been given falsely on someone's account.
And they had overdue movies.
Apparently it was me personally who sent the texts.
And he was going to call the police on me for it.
Then he was going to call them because I wouldn't give him the name
of the guy who used his number.
I eventually yelled at him through the phone that
NO ONE IS OUT TO GET YOU.

On top of all that, Bianca's puppy is missing.
He could be anywhere, with anyone, in any state.
In Woodridge. I want him to be ok and back at her house.
I'm scared. I hate being scared.

Also, I realised tonight that I'll never fall in love again.
I'm too scared of everyone. I won't let anyone get close to me.
I can't trust people.
I can't even trust myself.