Girls Night?

This weekend just gone was the best I've had in ages, and life has been good, so that's saying something. Karli came over on Friday night and we had a ball, just playing video games and being losers. I love hanging out with her because she totally gets me and everything that I'm into, which is hard to find when you're me. Haha. We played Army of Two for about 4 hours, and she's coming over again this weekend to play some more because it's pretty awesome. Then on Saturday I saw my Jessica for the first time in over three months. Nearly cried when I saw her - pretty sure we hugged for about ten minutes. I missed her so much. It was so great, all the awkwardness was completely gone and we kept spontaneously hugging. Watched the HILARIOUS dvd of her being hypnotised in one of those stage shows - funniest thing I've ever seen. Played Lips for hours. Good times :) hopefully will be seeing her again soon. Sure as hell don't ever wanna go that long without seeing her again.

Two exams this week and then I'm free for five! Hurrah! And then I start a course with subjects I actually want to do. I'm so looking forward to that - goodbye, journalism and criminology, you useless pieces of crap. I just hope I'm cut out for external studies. Should be okay though - I'm pretty motivated when I actually want to do the work. Unfortunately, for my exam week I have a cold and my period. Yeah, totally wanting to go to exams now...NOT.

I didn't really have a lot to say, just that I'm super happy after seeing Jess and I'm looking forward to another "girls night" with Karli, hahahahaha. Yeah, super girly.

I Love Daniel Jackson

Currently procrastinating. I'm really over criminology. Probably would be a whole lot less painful had I read the chapters each week instead of leaving them till now, but I take no blame! It's all criminology's fault. Bleh. The exam is tomorrow afternoon and I still have five or six chapters to read. So, intelligently and like the good little student I am, I decided I'd go to my cousin's tonight for Origin and Guitar Hero. Credit or lower, here I come!

I forgot how rewarding friendships can be. I became extremely solitary and hermit-like for quite a while, and I just recently began rebuilding friendships. Downside - social life is sucking all my funds. Lol. Being a loner = having plenty of cash. Ah well. I just have to learn that I don't need to buy something every time I go shopping - which was four times in the last fortnight. Bad Tara. Bad.

I've almost sort of nearly decided that I'm going to do the NZ program through ISV in the 2011-12 program instead of Costa Rica. The program costs are the same, but instead of my flights costing about $3300, they'll be $600-700. Slightly better, haha. I'll go to Costa Rica when I'm rich. Which is totally going to happen. With all my career aspirations and everything...

Speaking of, I never ever want to leave this uni lifestyle. I LOVE life now! I have so much free time, it's ridiculous, because fortunately I don't have to study really hard to get good marks. I'm not being up myself, it's just how it is - I retain information pretty easily. Once I've learned it, I usually don't have to revise it. So I have loads of time to see friends, read, play video games, watch movies, go for walks, play with my brother and my cat. It's awesome. Also, I love learning :) and I've always been jealous of those people with loads of degrees in different fields. Maybe I could be one of them. Maybe I could be Daniel Jackson and be this amazing archaeologist and travel to other planets and be adorable. Ah Daniel Jackson. Really I have no idea what to do with my life, hahahaha. Hopefully I'll marry a wonderful rich man. Fingers crossed.

Dad is now staying in Melbourne probably till Christmas. Which sucks. But Bec made him promise to come up every second weekend. This is why I need to marry rich - I never want to have to be separated because of money.

Party and others

I'm going to a party tonight. I think I've forgotten how to party, lol. I have no idea what I'm walking into. I don't drink either. It should be funny though. Just sitting there watching everyone look like morons. I did decide to socialise more. I think this is my punishment :P Bianca will be there too. Leasha, who's birthday party it is, warned me as though I'd change my mind about going. The thing is, I don't mind seeing Bianca. It's Bianca who can't stand me. She'll have to deal with it though, she can go home and bitch about me in her blog and then move to Melbourne haha. I can't believe she just isn't getting over it. We weren't dating, you know. Geez.

I also just discovered that my single Anthropology textbook is going to cost $20 more than my four English Lit novels put together. That seems a little ridiculous. A textbook, full of facts that are just compiled for easy reference, should not cost over four times the price of a work of fiction, created by someone completely from their own mind and probably put together over a year or more of hard work. I've watched someone write a novel, and it was intense. Textbook prices are bullshit. I am definitely not saying charge more for fiction, because then I couldn't buy as many books as I do. But stop over-charging so ridiculously for textbooks. You assholes.

I've lost all motivation to study for my tests. This semester now won't count, since I had to do pointless subjects due to my late enrolment. The last essay I handed in today is the worst essay I've ever written. It was very hard for me to hand that in, haha. But I just couldn't motivate myself to work hard on something that didn't matter. Sigh. So stupid.

Wish me luck for the party, folks.

Mild Case of Insomnia

I have to go to court tomorrow and give evidence about being held up with a knife at my throat. This happened almost a year ago. Within two months of the incident, I had managed to push the majority of the details out of my brain. On top of that, I had so many dreams (or perhaps nightmares is a better term) about it that I'm not entirely sure which memories are facts anymore. I just want it to be this time tomorrow and for the whole ordeal to be over. I don't want to relive it, and I don't want to make a fool of myself when I can't answer the questions either. Or if I contradict my statement.

My eyes are burning but as soon as I close them I'm wide awake. I think it's going to be a long night. The only thing I feel like watching is Stargate and I just finished the third season. I have to go to the video store to get season four. Potentially I could go now, they're still open for another 40 minutes. But it's cold out there and I really can't be bothered walking. Although it might help me sleep. I don't know.

Side note which is actually far more important in my life but isn't stopping me from sleeping, Dad is moving back up here. He and Bec (mainly Bec) couldn't handle the separation. I figured that would happen - I know I couldn't do long distance, and they have a kid to raise. So in a selfish way I'm happy, because I miss my Dad. But I'm also disappointed because he loves that job and now they'll probably both have to work and put Ben in fulltime childcare. I hope my life works out easier than theirs has, although with a degree in English Literature, it's not highly likely.

Tumblr

I just signed up for tumblr. I often want to post something quite short and I feel weird about doing that on here. I feel like I have to write an essay, so microblogging here I come!

http://itsonlyfiction.tumblr.com/

Fuck

Well Melbourne plans just went to shit. Not cancelled shit. Just, it's going to be way less awesome now shit. Maybe I shouldn't go. Maybe this is a sign.

Centrelink just kindly informed me that despite my financial independence and despite the fact that I'll be paying rent, I'm only entitled to the dependent rate of youth allowance if I live with my parent. That means $248 a fortnight. I currently get $377, plus $89 rent assistance. My rent is going to be $200 a fortnight. This means, I have to get a job. That ruins all my plans of focussing on study. Also, what if I can't find a job? $48 a fortnight is not enough for half of the bills and groceries, let me tell you. I don't know what to do anymore. I just really don't want to cry, and I can feel it coming. I was so excited about this whole moving thing, and now it's pretty much ruined. I hate Centrelink. I hate the government. I'm 20 years old, why should my father have to support me? Maybe I shouldn't move. What should I do? I really want to, but not if I'm going to be fucked when I get there.

Yes, Yes I Did Forget To Put A Title

I found out just now that it's just going to be me and Dad in Melbourne - the other guy is now moving to Queensland, lol. Coincidental much? It means higher rent, a larger portion of bills and more cooking, but I'm happy about it. Living with some random middle-aged man was the only thing I wasn't looking forward to. Shocking, I know. I'll be sending my belongings down in increments, not that it will be much without furniture, and that way Dad's mate can do it for free. He'll just chuck it in with another shipment and Dad will store it at his depot. So I made a list of the things I'll be keeping up here till I actually move. It's a very small list. Basically consists of clothes, toiletries, my 360 and my laptop, since Bec said I can borrow one of the (very small) TVs from upstairs. This flat will be very empty for the last week or so. Well, it will be furnished. But it will seem empty without my stuff. My books, my DVD collection, all my random things - they'll be in Melbourne. I might have to go out a lot that week or so, I think.

It's last week of classes at uni. I find out on Thursday whether or not I've been accepted to study online through USQ. Not sure what I'll do if I haven't, but I don't see that being an issue. I'm looking forward to studying at my own pace and in my own time.

Also, Karli has returned to Facebook, and it's a much brighter place now :P Haha, welcome back Karli. I missed you. :P