Moving Away

So I'm moving to Victoria in August, although I'll probably head down in July since I'm the one house-hunting. Dad works 12 hour days so he doesn't exactly have the time. I'm very excited but I'm also apprehensive about leaving everything behind. I mean, who wouldn't be? I've always lived here. I've barely been across the border to NSW. I'm very happy here too. Which makes you wonder, why leave it then? I figured, why not? Being 20 years old isn't about being settled, it isn't about staying in one place and calling it home. Brisbane will always be home of course. But being 20 is about finding out who you are, where you belong and what really makes you happy. It's about moving house a million times, living with different people and trying new things. I'm far from unhappy here - I love my granny flat, I love my step-mum, I love my uni (although I do complain about it a lot already). The thing is, I loved my job, and that was the one thing I was unwilling to give up. I'll still see my step-mum plenty, and my family and friends too. The house will still be here so I have free accommodation when I come up. A granny flat is just a granny flat, and what I love about uni is learning, so it doesn't matter where I am for that. The job however, was finally one that I didn't hate and I didn't want to lose that. But fate decided I had no choice in that and I got laid off. So I'll move. Everyone is either saying "I'll miss you" or "Melbourne is awesome," so I'm feeling pretty confident about living there. Plus, I'll be living with my Dad, so it's not like I'll be alone. It'll be a brilliant experience, and I can always come home if I want to.

I'm pretty disappointed that I won't be able to go to Costa Rica though, of course. BUT ISV said that although they can't refund my $600, they can give me a $450 scholarship for next year's program, so I will definitely do that. I might choose one of the cheaper options though, NZ or South Africa. I can travel to Costa Rica later when I have a real job. Or, a job at all, as it were. So I only lost $150, which is bearable. My savings are being greatly depleted already, because losing my job led to a big downer for me (I avoided depression though, which says a lot about how far I've come) and therefore shopping. Oh yes, I'm one of those girls. I bought boots and a couple of video games and a fair bit of fatty food. But I can build the fund back up again later.

I'm hoping that I can trade my services for cheaper rent in Vic. That sounds really disgusting, since I'll be living with my father and his workmate, haha. But I'm going to talk to Dad about being responsible for housework, grocery shopping and cooking in return for reduced rent, since they both work long hours. If I can negotiate successfully, I'm not going to get a job down there. Not just yet anyway. I want to focus on my studies, and I can survive happily off Centrelink, especially with low rent. I really hope he says yes, lol. I'm a good cook, I swear!

Despite my excitement...I hate moving. Le sigh. Hahaha. Way to end on a happy note.

Well, that's just great.

This will be a very short blog because my brain is not entirely functional right now.

I just lost my job. I was laid off because our store is $11000 behind in budget this year and the boss told my manager to fire the last person she hired. I popped in to rent a movie and lost my job. Cried in the store, made my manager feel really awkward. Bad day.

Probably won't be going to Costa Rica now, at least not in January. Am inquiring about transferring my deposit to the program for the following year. Hope they say yes.

Most likely moving to Melbourne. There's nothing for me here, and a new life down there.

It's a Big Bitch.

I think I'm going to be sick. Robert Pattinson plays Salvador Dali in a new movie called Little Ashes. Does nobody realise that he can't act? What director saw Twilight and went, 'hey wow, these kids are seriously good actors'? They aren't. They really, really aren't. It should be an easy series of films to act in, since the characters don't have personalities. Ok, well they have small ones. Bella's consists of being clumsy, and Edward's consists of being jealous over Bella. It makes me so angry that some moron picked him to play such a famous man. In case you aren't aware, Salvador Dali was a Spanish surrealist painter who was a bit cooky and unusual. Robert Pattinson looks nothing like him, even with the stupid moustache, is plain and nowhere near cooky and CANNOT ACT. I'm not sure what happened. Or how it happened. Just, what the fuck?

Separate topic - I am sick of Asians who come to Australia and don't bother to learn the language. I waste so much time at work trying to convey simple messages such as "You returned such-and-such without the disc" to Asians. It gets to the point where the only thing I can think of to try is to say it louder. Yes, because yelling WILL help. It just really frustrates me. Also, why do they answer their phone in Australia when they can't speak English. What is that going to achieve? "Hi, it's Tara from Blockbuster Sunnybank, how are you?" "...*long pause*Sowwy?" BAH! Fuck you. You're all so irritating. I love the Asians who come in, communicate effectively, spend a shitload of money in our store and say thank you. I love them. I hate you stupid non-English speaking idiots. Get out of my country.

Do you know what else I hate? Essays. That's all I have to say about essays, is that I hate them. Give me an exam any day.

Well folks (or folk, as may be the case - no clue if anyone actually reads this), I'm off to have dinner (yes, I am aware that it is now midnight) and watch Sherlock Holmes. Hoorah! My feet are cold.

General updatey goodness

Lily Allen is so amusing. I love her. I recently downloaded her old album Alright Still. Here's a couple of samples for you, readers.

Knock Em Out
Alright so this is a song about anyone, it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing and some one comes out the blue,
They're like, "Alright" What ya saying,
"Yeah can I take your digits?"
And you're like, "no not in a million years, you're nasty
please leave me alone."

Friday Night
Good dancing love but you should of worn a bra.

Not Big
Now listen I think you and me have come to the end of our time,
What d'you want some kind of reaction?
Well, OK, that's fine,
Alright, how would it make you feel if I said you that you never ever made me come?
In the year and a half that we spent together,
Yeah, I never really had much fun.

All those times that I said I was sober,
Well I'm afraid I lied,
I'd be lying next to you, you next to me,
All the while I was high as a kite.
I could see it in your face when you break it to me gently,
Yeah, you really must think you're great,
Let's see how you feel in a couple of weeks,
When I work my way through your mates.

That'll do, haha. I love her :)

Anyway, Dad moved to Victoria for work today. He couldn't find anything that paid decently up here, and they offered him a good position down there managing the Melbourne depot of RTS, a transport company. He managed the Brisbane one till they closed it due to the shitty economy. He's going to fly up every weekend to visit us, and hopefully it's only temporary. If it ends up being permanent, the whole family will move down and then I'll have a really hard decision to make. Hopefully that doesn't happen.

Work is still awesome. Although, I need less shifts right now because I'm falling behind on uni stuff. Oh well. The boss is on holidays so I guess it's to be expected that I'd have extra hours.

I've decided to spend Mothers' Day with my step-mum. My own mother didn't even wish me a happy birthday. She's not worth my time. Bec (step-mum) has been really great to me since I moved back in.

I built a computer all by myself! My Dad taught me well :) I bought all the parts, picked them out myself, and put them together. Took several hours but my computer is AWESOME. I haven't named it yet - I'm thinking maybe Shepard, after the Mass Effect character. I was so proud of myself.

I leave for Costa Rica on Jan 3, and return Feb 7. I'm kinda scared.

Best job yet.

It's really nice to go to work and genuinely smile the majority of the time I'm there. To genuinely enjoy the company of my co-workers. It's nice that the shifts don't drag unbearably and that the thought of work doesn't make me wonder if suicide would be a better option. It's nice that the customers have jobs and showers and don't abuse me because they brought their movies back late and got fees. It's nice that the whole computer system is really efficient and consistently works properly. It's nice that there's a store manager who isn't the owner and who works there full time as opposed to popping in once a week or so. It's nice that we can order the intelligent or foreign language or arthouse films because people in this area can actually comprehend them. It's nice that there's a really good sushi place just down from the store as opposed to McDonald's. It's nice that we do stocktake every quarter instead of once in four years (which only happened after we, the staff, harrassed the owner into organising it). It's nice to have a boss who has both a normal, functional brain and a sense of basic employee rights. It's nice that we don't have unpaid breaks that we can't even take. It's nice that we get proper public holiday rates. I never thought that a job in the EXACT SAME INDUSTRY could be so unbelievably better. It's just so nice :)

POSITIVITY!!!

Today was a really positive day for me :) WIN.

I had my first exam for journalism. It was multiple choice, took me about 5 minutes. Pretty sure I passed, lol.

Caught up with Karli, which was super awesome. Totally made my day that we still got along so well - was worried we had both changed and it wouldn't be the same. It's the same :) We're going to keep catching up, hopefully regularly. Hey, maybe I actually have a friend now! Lol.

I got accepted into this amazing program through ISV (International Student Volunteers). I'll be going overseas (hopefully to Costa Rica, otherwise Thailand, South Africa or NZ) for 4 weeks in summer to do 2 weeks volunteer work in conservation, and then a 2 week adventure tour. Absolutely awesome. It's going to be the experience of a lifetime. Extra shifts at work, here I come! Haha. I went and had dinner at my grandparents' house tonight to ask if I could borrow $500 for the deposit. Had a really good night AND they said they would just give me the $500, which is totally awesome of them. They need to stop getting old, I'm scared of them dying *touches wood*.

Anyway, had to blog quickly. I have quite a bit of uni work to do. Dammit.

P.S. Does it seem really bad to you that seeing my mother is more awkward for me than seeing an ex?

Ice cream

I've taken to obsessively checking Facebook and Blogger for updates. I think I need to get out more, I'm just totally socially deprived lol. I am getting out more soon! I'm going to the movies on Thursday night with Nathan and next Friday with Karli. So it's almost like having a social life. Almost.

I'm really getting exasperated with this cold. It was a cold, then the flu, and now it's back to a cold. I've had it for about two months. I haven't felt especially sick, besides the week where it was the flu, but it's just irritating me now. Constantly sniffling, and I can't afford to keep buying tissues damn it. Plus, the whole time I've been at uni I've been sniffling, blowing my nose in class, sneezing like a moron, and looking like crap (bloodshot eyes, red nose, blotchy skin). It's a very bad first impression. Bah. I've had enough.

Besides that...I am actually in a really good mood lol. Just not for any particular reason, so no blogging material there.

Later 'gator!